I sit here and I reflect,
How did I let you back in?
you are not welcome here
all you bring is misery & hate
you make me hate myself
you make me feel like a failure
I did not invite you
yet you came anyway
you are always testing me
waiting to come back in
I name you darkness
you sap the joy out of life
I wish I could rid you
but I always fail
Yes, I had another mental breakdown today, this time there were no triggers, no hormones to blame. I don’t know how I got into this state, I’m making positive changes; I’m getting on top of finances and exercising more. Yet the darkness still came to devour all joy.
I completely understand! Depression is a B****!! Here if you ever want to talk 🙂
Demons Of Darkness
© Olivia B
Published on September 16, 2015
She stood on the bridge
In silence and fear
For the demons of darkness
Had driven her here
They cut her heart
Right out of her chest
Making her believe
That the demons knew best
They were always there
Sometimes just out of sight
Waiting in the background
Till the time was right
These demons were destructive
Knocking down the life she knew
Hating everything about her
She hated herself too
These demons can’t be seen
But they’re far from fairy tales
They live inside your mind
Their evilness prevails
So on the bridge she stood
About to end the fight
Then she stopped and thought
I’ll fight them one more night
Source: http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/demons-of-darkness
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